So desperate for love...

... It makes your heart hurt. (Just an observation.)

Lemonhead

If someone's hating, you're doing something right.

the Universe loves me.

Two trains of thought: First, It's a very hard thing to think about yourself as being nothing more than a microscopic speck in a massive portrait of all things. Second, It's very easy to make yourself out to be the center of the Universe, feeling as though all your woes are the most important and detrimental. I think the easily misconstrued component is having a negative mindset about events and understanding that it ultimatly effects the way things turn out for you. A person giving off negative energy attracts other hurt and negative people. I notice this when meeting new people, it's pretty easy to pick up on vibes and notice negativity after only talking to someone for a couple minutes. If you're happy and you're talking to someone who isn't, it comes off as threatening. I think to myself, "somehow this person is going to try to suck the positivity out of me and I need to get away from you." No one likes to party alone, that's why misery loves company. I like it when people say, "I don't know why this always happens to me." That somehow this external force has it out for you, cursing you with a life of pain while it's quite the contrary, it comes from within. You are in complete control of everything involving you, it's actually one of the only things, we as human beings have control over. You shouldn't have to rely on something or someone to make you happy, people pick up on that, no one wants to be someone's savior or to be responsible for the happiness of another. If you find yourself getting caught up in this vicious cycle, you can't wonder why those "bad things" always happen to you, you're just attracting the wrong energy. If you feel like you don't deserve to be happy because of things you've done in the past, guess what... you're not alone. If you feel as though the World is judging you, they're probably not. Those other people are probably just as focused on themselves as you are about yourself. You should feel happy because you're happy with you. When you feel this way, you become more attractive to others, they want to get to know and be around you. The one thing I remind myself of, is 'I am an important microscopic speck in a massive portrait of all things and the Universe loves me.'

High Five

Oh Bother!

(Photoshop Practice: Bear)

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Echo

I don't know what it means to be me.
So, why the fuck do I want to be like you?

:)

It's Dec. 01 2011

Swimming in the Sea of Doubt

Sometimes I want to say things but worry about the bridges I'd burn, the people I'd hurt. I'd like to put some ink on my forearm but worry about the doors that would close (being judged on appearance instead of talent.) I want to venture out and expand my concept of the World but worry that I won't be able to find my way home. Doubt can be a crippling thing and if I choose to let it dictate my life, what kind of "life" will I have lived.

Just keep swimming (fuck that) running.

o.o