Time Machine

The door swung wide open with the help from a man who didn't know his own strength. This sudden movement caught my eye and to my surprise I was greeted with a beautifully effortless smile. I didn't know if it was directed at me or what the intent may have been but I didn't care because for that brief moment in time I felt 15 years old again. Not a care in the world, simply excited just to be in your line of sight and with a sudden act of desperation the door began it's course to it's original position. You were gone and I was still cold. 

broken pinkies

There's butterflies in my stomach today, they're not the nervous ones you get before a job interview or the ones you get right before a promising first date. They're the crippling ones that keep you in bed for 12 hours straight, you know the kind you never learn to miss. I've tried very hard to detach myself from this anchor that has been dragging me below water for months now and when I feel like I've made some progress here comes days like today. The very thought of proximity makes me wish I had made you make the same promise. If we ever decide to go our own ways, just let me know which path you'll take so that I may politely go the opposite way. You may not know it but you've managed to find me again and I hate you for it.  

Finite Feelings

I wake up every morning and sing
about the things that I've made up in dreams
and if I could show you, a glimpse of what I've seen
I think you might just side with me

Now the morning has quickly past
the ideas and thoughts are coming too fast
and now i'm starting to feel, praying and hoping this isn't real
all I can hope is that these feelings won't last

I think this all goes to show
that nobody truely knows
but everything will be okay, as long as we can get away
don't worry my love, we will be set free


Don't worry my love, we still have our dreams

No One Knows You Better Than You... and Maybe God

Don't wear your insides, out.

Closed off to the world

You're so afraid to show
When your mind begins to flow
Open your eyes and see
You're just so beautiful to me

Friends

           You have faith in these people, you trust that there is respect for your friendship and that they wouldn't do anything to intentionally hurt you. You believe them when they say "I care," you believe that they wouldnt steer you in wrong directions... so you value their opinion. You count on them to be there for you, it doesn't have to be physically, it doesn't even have to be on your time, the only thing you expect is a response... eventually. This is what friendship means to me, now I may have a warped sense of thinking, I know I may even have the tendency to swim in my thoughts and make Hollywood budget movies out of the most generic of situations but I can honestly say that some of my "friends" don't share these same principles and even then, I find myself putting them before me. That might make me a real friend or a complete idiot but one can only endure the tribulations that come along with having someone who doesn't share this same idea in your life. Eventually it gets to the point where they become so invaluable and so oblivious to how you feel about them it doesn't matter anymore. Over time friends have come and gone and some friends have been around for years. Some of us have grown apart, connected by vague and awkward emails. Some of us have grown together, connected by like minded ideas and a passion to continue growing together. I've had the privilege of getting to know a number of amazing people this past year who I can honestly call my friends and I have also lost respect for others. The one thing I've learned after going through this process is that you can't burn a bridge that doesn't exist anymore. To my friends reading this, I love you and thank you for being a key part of my life.  


(This post is kind of perfect to me for a number of reasons, it may not be evident and it may not be clear but thanks for humoring me <3)

An embodied collective of everything I strive to be

You gracefully flowed between my fingertips, politely vanished out of sight, and painfully escaped my mind. You will forever be embedded in a poor choice of words and a piece of writing not worthy of your description. Here’s to everything good about you.

smile :)

:] dont be so serious :-)


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